Yesterday was a bittersweet day. We went to Tiff Norton's wedding at Mt. Timpanogos temple. It was beautiful and very obvious that Tiff and her new husband, David, were definitely meant for each other. It was a perfect wedding. I love going to temple weddings. They make me want to rededicate myself to my husband and my family. It was so wonderful to be reminded that the Lord has a perfect plan and we really can experience immeasureable joy when we make and keep our covenants.
However, when we got home from the luncheon my sister-in-law, Elli called me and let me know that our little nephew, Keegan Jay Watson, passed away around 1 pm. Keegan was born on Monday, Dec. 29th via C-section and was immediately sent to the the NICU at UVRMC in Provo. He was diagnosed with hydrops, which is basically fluid build-up in the sacs around his organs. Because he so much fluid, his organs weren't functioning properly. He was life flighted to Primary Children's Hospital that night and they've kept him heavily sedated and medicated since then. He was on a ventilator and they've been draining fluid from his severly swollen abdomen since he was flown in. Because they didn't know the cause of the hydrops, the doctors have been running tests on Keegan and his mom, Katy, all week. Saturday morning, Keegan's doctors found two newly-formed blood clots in his brain. They unhooked him from the ventilator and all his medications, gave him some morphine, and for the first and last time, Jason and Katy got to hold their son. He died in their arms. He was only five days old.
As we sat with our combined families at the Petersen home last night, I thought about what I'm supposed to learn from this experience. First, I was grateful for the plan of salvation that ensures that Keegan will get to grow up and have all the blessings of a full life. Second, I am grateful for my busy but healthy family. Third, I am grateful that the Atonement covers our sorrows and heartaches, as well as our sins. It helps me to know that no one has to suffer alone. As this new year begins, I've thought about what I need to do to have the Spirit more present in our home and in our lives. I've decided that I need to live my life with no regrets, especially when it comes to living the gospel and raising our family. I think my scripture motto for this year is appropriate. "...Choose you this day whom ye will serve... but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord" Joshua 24:15.
(my SIL, Elli, took the above pictures. Thanks for sharing, Elli!)